Heart Ties

never could i have known i'd go into an evening w/ all the oldest loves of my life, and leave w/ my heart pricked over and over by someone i've never even met, a complete stranger to my eyes, but not my heart

my cousin shared about you, in her eyes - as she told of only the scant surface of your journey - i saw how she shares in your pain - they welled up w/ tears... she loves you, she holds your story close and wants to see your desires come to pass... infertility can do that to those we love, make them ache for us

hearing your story tonight was such a reminder... it pricked my new world with familiar pain -  once pregnant, the world of infertility is just gone in ways you won't be able to put words to, but tonite, just seeing the tears in my cousins eyes for you - it reminded me down deep, the feeling of just not understanding

writing tonite, not b/c I have any advice... any anything really except the voice of one who is now on the other side and prays faith always whispers in your ears to never give up - b/c this side is just so different than the one you are walking in, and the pain of it all will melt and that i know is just not possible to imagine but if you can trust me, i am believing for you that this side is coming, i know my cousin is believing too, and sometimes just that is enough

God speed sweet girl.